‘Tis the season, on social media, for celebrating the year gone by and making grand declarations for the year to come. Posts sharing users’ most popular photos, highest viewing blog articles, or just favourite moments are everywhere and it is wonderful to see. Promises of new regimes, hopes and dreams are flooding my feeds and everyone of them is an inspiration. I’m afraid this post, however, is a little different.
Taking a break
I’ve not written anything on Digital Steak since August. I’ve been touched by the number of people who have contacted me to see if everything is OK. In a world of so much noise, content, and sharing, to be noted for my absence means a huge amount, thank you.
I’ve needed a break from everything online as life has taken an unexpected turn this year and I’ve just not known how to keep writing through it. I have always found writing Digital Steak very cathartic; it helps me process what is going on in both my mind and my heart. I have used it to get what is bothering me off my chest and, by sharing it, assimilate it and move forward.
It is not that I have not wanted to write. It is just that on the one level, I’ve really enjoyed doing things entirely for myself; not sharing or writing about climbs, trips, and experiences but being wholly present. On another level, I have not felt able to share what has been going on with me and, as such, have felt it would not be genuine to write about other day-to-day goings on when the elephant in the room looms over my shoulder.
I have felt that the turning of 2016 would be a perfect moment to start moving on, to start writing again, and to get everything out in the open.
Last year was incredible. In so many ways it was amazing. However, it was also one of my worst. It was a year where living at a rate of knots and in a less than conventional way took its toll. This lead to Sophie and I moving in very different directions and resulted in us separating, something I honestly would never have seen coming.
I’ve not felt in a position to talk about this openly and, as a result, having always been so open and honest on my blog, I’ve not felt able to write about anything else either. The New Year and where I feel I have got to in the last 6 months, however, have given me the chance to start afresh and to begin moving forward.
I have so much to learn from both the good and the bad of 2015 but, for now, this is going to take time so I am going to take this opportunity to look forward, to get excited about the amazing prospects I have been working away at.
In short, 2016 is the year of The Mountain Foundry. This is my main focus, project, and passion right now. Training people has given me so much pleasure and learning how better to help people reach their fitness goals is giving me a focus and drive that I have missed recently.
As with the last few years, I have some very exciting climbing, skiing and mountain projects coming up and am looking forward to seeing where these may lead.
I am also keen to get back to writing Digital Steak. The help and direction it has added to my life means I do not want to give it up but it is going to take time to get back into it and feel comfortable writing as openly as I have in the past.
I know this is not quite the post everyone would expect this time of year but it is what I’ve got and where I am.
I’ll be back soon, full of vim and vigour, and no doubt equally exciting and annoying people with the goings on in the life I have chosen to lead.
Thank you for all of your continued support.